Angels and Pornoland

I got talked into joining the Jovit Baldovino Fan page by one of my close buddies. While I do not know Jovit Baldovino from Jovit Moya, Ed promised me it’ll be fun and stuff.

Actually, walang point tong post na to na-touch lang ako sa introduction ni Ed. He lied though,the truth is  I was a bigass flaming bitch in college but I appreciate the gesture.

Haven’t seen the guy in almost two years and my gosh, I miss hanging out with him.

Last week was a busy week for me, I spent most of my time darting back and forth to my full-time and part-time gig. It was definitely exhausting. It is as if both my clients decided to shake things up by giving me one new task after another. Hay. I feel so tired.

I went out to see a couple of Angels last Friday. Initially, Paeng and I wanted to watch the movie Iron Man. Yeah it’s been out for so long and yet we only managed to find time to watch it last Friday. I was stoked because I really, really want to watch that movie. Unfortunately, my hope was dashed because Rene and his friends wanted to hang out. To cut the story short, we ran out of time and decided to not watch the movie at all. Oh, well.

The El Nino heat is quite punishing, isn’t it? I’ve been breaking out in hives for godknowswhatreason. The humidity is killing me slowly. This is one of those moments where I’m frustrated that I’m no longer working in an office. I’ve no choice but to (quite literally) sweat it out. My sister does not want me to buy an air conditioner because our neighbors’ electric bills hit an all-time high last April and she does not us to suffer the same fate. I couldn’t care less but talked me out of it. So there, if I can describe what I’ve been doing for the past two months, I’d say I’ve done nothing but sweat like a pig.

To make things worse, my funds is slowly being depleted.It’s all my fault, I’ve been recklessly buying stuff these past few months. This is why I resolve to start saving up. However, the timing is off, we are all set to buy a couch, a bed frame, mattress and a couple of cabinets next month. Well, they are not really that necessary when you come to think of it but I have grown weary at the state of our apartment. I guess I work best when I’m surrounded with beautiful things, hehehehe. And that’s the precise reason why I’m so poor right now.

Moving on, my plan to return to an office-based job might be delayed. You see, my job hunting partner isn’t really making an effort to update her resume… or do anything for that matter. So I’m left to do stuff alone. I would’ve been okay with that except I don’t really need to find a job right now. Plus I’m saving up. Job hunting meant unnecessary spending. So my plan is to wait it out, save money and hopefully find a really fulfilling job in the months ahead. I’ve been considering on switching careers but at this point I see no chance of it materializing because I’m a lazy fuck.

Finally, I’m on a diet. An apple diet, to be precise. It’s a diet scheme I came out with out of desperation. Basically, whenever I feel hunger pangs, I’d eat apples instead of fattening stuff. I can’t even tell you how miserable I am at this point. I guess I inadvertently let myself go once I started working from home. I can’t even drag myself to do of exercises like I used to because it is too hot to do anything else. I wish it is rainy season na so that I can exercise and stop the madness.

A couple of years ago, I had a fight with a good friend over something that is a mystery to me even now.I believe I didn’t write anything about the guy in this site. So here’s the dope:

He got mad over something. I apologized to him even though I was unsure what it is that made him mad. He not only rejected my apology, he also started another fight. I decided to not contact him ever. I felt bad because he was such a good friend but I didn’t bother clearing the air because I was confused on the thing that bought on the fight to begin with and I was offended that my apology was not accepted.

Of course, some people who think they know the real story behind it kept insisting that I did something terrible to this person. It’s infuriating at times, you know? To be honest, I resented those people simply because they think once they heard one side of the story then that explains everything. The worse part is that they keep bringing it up. Maybe they think it’s funny or they want make me feel shitty about it, I don’t know. I just hate it. It’s not a matter of my feeling being hurt over certain accusations but it seems to me that I was made to look like I didn’t do anything to pacify the situation. Well I felt guilty nonetheless. I thought, hey, if they think you did something terrible then maybe it’s true, you just don’t know it because it’s not like you are the most sensitive person around, you know?

To be fair, my behavior in the past did nothing to make them think otherwise. I guess I’m just fed up with people who automatically points their finger at the usual suspect because well, it’s convenient. It’s so lacking in imagination.

So last week, I had a set up meeting with Kapre and our discussion turned to this very subject. Actually, the guy earned my respect that very night because he was much more deep than he lets on. Well, I had suspicions that he is deep but I never really had an honest talk with the guy ever.

He asked me what happened and I jogged my memory about it. I knew there were more to it than just the stupid camera but I just can’t quite put my finger on it. Normally, the guy was pretty easy-going and I was flabbergasted to find out that he didn’t accept my apology considering we’ve been friends for a while and instead provoked another fight which just made things worse.

I won’t go into details but he saw the situation in an entirely different light. His theory turned out to be be very accurate. He said I should’ve taken the higher road and during those times I thought I did. But apparently, the road I took was not high enough. So for the second time, I apologized about the thing. Well, this scenario was the same exact thing that it was two years ago, the only difference is, nobody’s mad anymore. I was actually very curious to find out what really made the guy act the way he did but the guy said he cannot remember the real reason why he acted the way he did. Tch.

But Kapre has his theory and based on the email I received, I think Kapre is right on the money.

Case closed.